Cleaning!

I did end up going out last night, so tomorrow (Tuesday), will be my cleaning DAY.  Granted I'll probably wake up at 11 or 12...and I have to go to Kahala to get my computer, but once that's done I'll clean.  

I've already taken the "Before" pictures.

Now I just need the "After".

In other news.  I'll be returning my Macy's booty and BE eyeshadow.  I...just...don't...need...it.  (and my credit card statement was emailed to me this morning.)  So into the trunk it goes with the Old Navy sweaters from three weeks ago that also need to be returned.

Goodies!

Had a great shopping afternoon on Saturday with Christy.

Spent it at Macy's getting a 'free' facial.  (Cause, you know, you always spend a little money...or 187 dollars.)  Then hit Bare Escentuals and scored another 120 dollars worth of goodies.

And here I sit, the morning after....blogging instead of applying said cosmetics.

Tonight I will NOT go out.  I will not see the boyfriend.  I will go home after work and clean out my bathroom drawer.

Pictures to follow.

Lost Morning

Normally I sit at my computer in the morning and check my e-mail, read Christy's blogs and check on an assortment of other blogs.  Of course, I have all of these feeds automatically updated in my mail program, so with one click I'm good to go while I drink my morning coffee.

This morning I checked e-Bay and replied to someone (an idiot!), and now I sit here at a loss.  I should get ready anyway.  Maybe today I won't be running around trying to get to work on time because I spent too much time at the computer.  Maybe.

Quite Possibly The Most Beautiful Dress Ever

I'm fairly certain that this is the most beautiful dress ever created.  It figures that Audrey Hepburn wore it.

Just ignore JLH.

  

It seems that I'm quickly becoming obsessed with Audrey.

Audrey is wisdom

"The only thing that does any good is to jump in a cab and go to Tiffany's. Calms me down right away."

There was a day...

I spent an hour or two last night looking though my computer to try and clear out some files.  I came across my old essays and research papers from the beginning of my college career.  This was probably (and sadly) when I peaked, academically speaking.  I started taking tons of writing and English classes.

There was a point, probably a year after started college where my professor kept trying to get me to submit pieces for publication.  I wasn't interested and often missed the deadlines.  I did get a few things published in the school's Literary Magazines and books, but nothing noteworthy.

Perhaps the biggest Doh! of my college career was the lackadaisical attitude I had toward my professor's insistence that I rewrite a media literacy project to submit it to 20/20 for production.  I took the offer with a grain of salt, rewriting the paper (because my prof said it had such potential that she gave me a D on it and asked me to rewrite it for a better grade).  I did the rewrite but never finished it to the point where it would be ready to submit for production.

For whatever reason I was looking at my old papers, and it makes me want to revise them after eight years.

What a pointless post.

A Perfect Day Off:

10 Hours of Super Smash Brothers Brawl with the boyfriend and pizza.  What a great day!

A Weakness: Old Navy

I tried to resist the urge to spend at Old Navy.  I gave in last night.

This morning I had a realization that the money I spent at Old Navy about equals what I made selling stuff on eBay.  Great going.

And it's too late to cancel my order.  

Now, will I really go to Old Navy to return a dozen tanks and two hoodies?  

Worse yet, I only bought the hoodies with the intention of returning them so I'd get free shipping.  I should actually check my closet to see if I need them.  I think I do since I haven't done laundry in three weeks and I've started wearing clothes I haven't worn in forever.

ugh.

That Time of Year

No, not tax season.

Not spring cleaning.

That other time of year.

My credit cards are expiring.  And so, Macy's has deemed that I spent enough last year to give me a gold card.  Frig.

My Visa company has doubled my credit limit.

Yikes!

Cutting up my Macy's card as I type.

Dogs and cats, oh my

B and I are trying to find a breed of dog that we can both agree upon getting.

Let me rephrase that.  I'm looking.  He's saying no way.

I want a Chinese Crested.  He wants a Bulldog.  I want a Maltipoo.  He wants a Corgi.

So far a Pembroke Corgi (which is way too big anyway) and a Jug (which is way too rascal) are the only two we've been able to agree upon.

I want a cutsie dog, damnit.

Regret

I haven't been on MySpace in close to six months. I made the mistake of doing so today. I somehow ended up (NOT on purpose) at my ex-boyfriend's page. The thought-about-marriage-and-kids-and-the-future ex-boyfriend. Then I had pangs. I miss him.  

Not THAT kind of miss.

I realized while we were dating that we'd probably never work out in the end since I didn't love him like a girlfriend should, something I didn't realize until he'd fallen for me, but he made me feel safe and he was a wonderful boyfriend, attentive and caring and put me on an impossibly high pedestal I didn't deserve. He did all of the random cutesy things boyfriends think they're suppose to do but ever actually get around to doing: bring me flowers, buy me presents, he even serenaded me once.  

Although I loved him, (yes I'm aware I contradicted myself) I felt we were better served as friends than anything else. He didn't understand me enough. He wanted to uproot me and move me to California, something I swore I'd never do. It was a choice he forced me to make, and I wasn't going to choose him over my family...we had a hard time with the breakup so we didn't speak for close to a year. Eventually he became one of my best friends. Until he met his fiancée. She refuses to 'let' him talk to any of his old friends, and even his family. She's completely cut him off from everyone he used to care about. The trade in: he's now a kept man. I miss the friend I had in him.  

But that's it.  

I have a wonderfully perfect boyfriend who's real, down to earth and loves me. We have similar interests but still are very different people. I love him so much. He doesn't try to be the cookie cutter boyfriend that he thinks women expect.  I had a lot of ideals growing up regarding relationships. How we met, how he tells me he loves me for the first time, first kiss, and other such important milestones. B doesn't conform to standards and ideals, I thought I wouldn't like it, he makes it fun and interesting. He's himself and that's what I love about him.  

B and I just made 8 months, and I still get the same butterflies I got when we first started dating. True Love is something I've never believed in. I believe love is a solid foundation, that a couple has to work at a relationship, hard, to make it and two people have to be compatible on the most basic and complex levels, at the same time...I know this love is different, very different from the other feelings I've experienced with past boyfriends, and those didn't last. I was always the one that lost interest after a few weeks or a couple of months. I've never been in a relationship where I feel so vulnerable to being hurt, and I've never, ever been the jealous type. I am now. I'm also ready to move to the mainland to be with B, and he's worth it.  

So what do I regret?  

Going to ex-boyfriend's MySpace in the first place.

Do You Remember?

Wishlist Update 2

Updated list of crap I want that isn't important enough for me to actually purchase. Just a fleeting case of the gimmes.

My last update to this list was in early October.  Since then, I've managed to knock a few things off of my list.

Victoria Beckam's new book, That Extra Half An Inch [bought with a gift card from Borders]

Gilmore Girls Season 7 [got this from JFab and The King as a thank you]

A super awesome new desktop computer [this is a pure want that I won't get]

Smash Bros Brawl [boyfriend bought this for himself, me...let's just say, my Wii is relocating to his place]

A Point and Shoot Canon camera, 6-8 MP is fine with a macro that uses SD [got this as a Christmas present from the boyfriend]

dVb purses. Yes, that's plural.

A new Coach purse and wallet [I got a small coin thing from a coworker, enough to pacify myself]

A 'happy one year' at my job present to myself [got it!]

Juicy stuff.  Just random stuff.

I've removed a few video games that I no longer want, I would like to add:

A craft table to start scrapbooking (again)

Something to scrapbook about

A tiny simple desktop computer [for my mom]

New bedding for the boyfriend or for Oregon, whichever comes first (trust me, you don't want to know why, I didn't)